Common Sense

Why it took me weeks to decide what to do I have no idea.  Watching him play with our son, cuddle me at a concert, cooking a romantic meal, people who cheat don't still do these things do they? Where would he find the time to cheat? He left for work at 7am everyday and came home at 6:30. There was no time.

My friend told me she thought I was crazy to suspect him but to be sure we would take her car into the City. If he was seeing someone it must be at work right? Driving into the City with a baby was not my idea of fun, and I so nearly changed my mind.  Thankfully, my friend wanted to visit a particular shop so I had to go. So, there we were. I watched him leave his office that Friday (I thought that would be a likely day as the wouldn't see each other at the weekend)  walk to a car park and climb in someones car.   

Well, there was my answer.  I couldn't even confront him. I went back home, packed my stuff and went to my parents to stay.  My dad called him to explain where I was.  The next day, we talked and I went home with him.  I was so in love with him and didn't think I could cope as a single mum.  Of course it was hard but he kept saying it was me he loved, he didn't care for her.  I mean we all make mistakes.  He assured me that the other rumours my friend told me about were all lies. why would he admit one and not the others? A clear minded person would realise that he was admitting to what he had been caught doing.

He went out of hs way to assure me the relationship was over.  She reacted furiously, turning up at work hysterical.  All his colleagues knew.  Then came pictures of them together posted over our street, through our neighbours letter boxes. She even turned up to a playground I was at with my baby.  Despite all this; I now know he started seeing her again within weeks.  Even after the humiliation she caused him, myself but most importantly our son.

Of course, I never knew he was back with her. He tried so hard to win me back.

So, it would take work but we get our lives back. The worst was over right? 

By heck, I was such an idiot.