So for the last 6 months I have sulked away in my wee cottage on my own with my son. It's really not easy being on your own with a baby all day but most of my friends that I knew here have all gone got married and had babies. I don't know quite how to reconnect. How do I explain why I am back? With a baby but no husband? My grandparents have been amazing. I have aunts/uncles/cousins here but they all have their own lives now. Of course they try. To be fair I have been a right grump.
Finally I fell ready to move on and plan on staying in Scotland. I am intending on extending my time off work by 1 year and then look at teaching positions. In the meantime, I am restarting my baby music classes. I adored holding them and really hope that it will be a way of meeting some new mums.
And M? He is still furious I have moved away but I always said that I would never stop him seeing his son. He has him for 1 weekend a month and we can increase contact as R gets older. Seeing R all packed up to go is heart breaking. But what if I had stayed? M would have cheated again, why wouldn't he? He cheated from day one. Is is healthy for a child to grow up in a house were his mother never trusts his father? I want my son to see me in a healthy stable relationship, and not grow up thinking you stick with something even if it makes you unhappy, R will never remember the horrible break up and for that I am thankful.
Oh and I almost forgot, M lives with his bit on the side now. Good luck to her!!!!!!!!!
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